#12: a letter to my 20 year old self

Miss Angel

Jul 30

I attended my younger sisters' graduation last Sunday. As I look back, seven years ago I was also at that moment wearing the black graduation gown. How time flies indeed, where am I now? Nostalgic and so much had happened for a fresh graduate back then.

To my 20 year old self, hey girl!
I bet you had impossibly seen this moment coming. You were a simple student then. Though you like to achieve something better, you have always been that low-key. You didn't study a lot but you could pass and sometimes ace exams. You were a working student and you did well on managing your time and studies I guess.

You have made this far. You have passed your licensure exam and landed the job you were aiming for. Congratulations! Even though you have achieved some of what you worked hard for, please know that this woman right now is still experiencing crossroads. Who would have thought that adulting would be really hard? There could be lots of words and inspiration that you could get left and right but none would matter if you lose the trust within yourself. I mean, you were not confident even before but I have seen your growing faith in God and in yourself.

You did struggle. You hit rock bottom.
You were thinking you could still get lost at any moment.
You did it scared. You did it alone.
You keep going and doing.

The world is so much more than what textbooks and modules have taught us.
Life is so much more than what we experience in the four-cornered classrooms.
Life is so much more than work.
You have met lots of people and you will still meet more!
You have found friendships that remain constant.
You also constantly lost and found yourself back to God.

But why am I writing this?
I would just love to remind this current year old me that much had really happened and God has been gracious. His will and His time are always the best. Thanks for keeping up and going on. The 20 year old self might have struggled all the way to where we are now, and the 27 year old now is also proud. Kampai!