June is almost over and half of the year just happened.
This might be a sort of mandatory self check-in on how the year so far.
For the time being, having been able to have a month-long vacation, I am grateful. Taking this rest is essential especially in my line of work where we rarely took rest seriously. I rested at home and once in a while went out for catch-ups and small gatherings. The introvert me can't keep up the social battery of meeting lots of people always.
In my solitude, I am able to sit down and journal what life has been teaching presently.
Along this journey, my mantra and prayer has been "I have a big God, He is bigger than my thoughts and my doubts. He is with me." And that all alone brings me back to being grounded and assured.
Life has also taught me to be more trusting. Learning to truly put my faith in Him and surrender. It's always been said let go and let God but it's a journey my friend. Slowly and continuously because there are always detours. I'll whisper in prayer, " This is out of my control Lord, take over. Your will be done, Lord." It's about praying for courage and serenity to be able to face any situations.
In one of the drama series I've watched this time, the older character said, "Being bored is all right. Being busy is all right. Everything is alright because that's just how life is." I couldn't agree more. Watch Summer Strike please, a warm Korean series I love to recommend.
One lesson that also resonates in this season of my life is how everything is about flow. When you give, you also receive. When you receive, you must also give. When we love, we learn to get hurt. When we get hurt, we learn how to love. We continue the flow of life through sharing and extending our life to other people.
During this rest, I came to realize how my free days mean more to me.
It would take me some time and think many times before I can decide over a single invitation (please don't judge me 😀). As someone who gets to say yes most of the time when invited or asked, I'm learning. It's hard for me to say no when I am in a situation like that and I would feel very guilty then.
It doesn't mean that because I am free, I will be available anytime. That goes to you and other people as well. It is a matter of boundaries and respecting one's space.
I got to meet and catch-up with people dear to me and my love tank is filled. At home, I'm reading my TBR books and have finished five already (yey!). Binge-watched series with my siblings all throughout day and night sometimes. I ran early mornings and joined organized races too. It will not always be like this so I am grateful for the rest.
Six more months to go! I hope and pray that the following months will be grace-filled for us to continue our journey. I know you'll make it too! Even this time being, I am proud of you already. Mach weiter!
For now, I'm taking most of the remaining vacation days before work is waving at a distance already.
Love,
Angel
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