Pa-rant lang slight.
I don't know what's the best title for this: "It's hard to talk to someone with saltik", "Why power-tripping is so common in the workplace?", "Why do people think highly of themselves?"
I'm wondering if I'm the one on the wrong side of emotions today, or if it's her, who blurted out hurtful words and accusations based solely on her interpretation of the conversation we had this morning.
I'm pissed.
I'm pissed because I was accused of having a personal agenda. I'm pissed because I was accused of overstepping when I was simply challenging something. I'm pissed because this is the second time this year that someone has made me feel inadequate and unqualified to speak up. And it's coming from two different people in the same organization—a place I've been part of for fifteen years.
To be honest, since I transferred to another department, I've been asking myself: "Am I like them?", "Was this how I treated people?", "Did I hurt others with my words because of the 'power' held by the organization I once belonged to?"
Have you ever been treated badly in your workplace? I'm wondering, if I'm being treated like this by certain people with authority—despite the fact that I'm also in a position—how are the rank-and-file employees being treated?
The worst part is, as I ended both the conversation this morning and the one a few months ago, one of them acknowledged she was wrong, and the other acknowledged she understood my point and would consider my feedback. But neither of them apologized for the way they spoke to me.
What's worse is that both of them might not even be aware of the impact their behavior has on others. This reminds me of a question from a mental health talk I attended: "Doctora, what if someone in the workplace is actually the cause of your stress and anxiety?"
Pero syempre, side ko lang 'to. I'm not here naman to seek validation or get people to side with me because no one knows the full context of this situation. This is just one of my ways to release the negative energy that's consumed me today. The other? My Grab food from Yellow Cab's Charlie Chan, which is about to arrive in a few minutes.
Grrr. I'm pissed.
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